- I’m a very true believer in fate.
- I can’t stomach watching or hearing anything about surgery, broken bones, removing things etc I feel like I will faint or drop dead. I do have a serious respect for people that need serious surgery and live to tell about the recovery.
- I’ve been Type 1 Diabetic for the past 23 years and it still doesn’t get easier. I have learned that I am a pretty badass warrior who has lived through things many would never be able to.
- I love my cat Henry so much even though he’s such a jerk to me. He will be four years old this August and I cry every time I think about the day I brought him home. I adopted him a month after losing my fourteen year old cat, who was literally my best friend, so much so that I tattooed his name on my ankle. So Henry wasn’t a replacement but definitely comforted me in the months that followed that heartbreak. The only time Henry is nice to me is when I tell him he’s about to be brushed, or he’s sick and needs to go to the vet and let’s me hand feed him.
- I’m not a cat lady, I definitely love kittens and cats, but I do want a puppy someday soon.
- I am seven credits short of a Bachelors Degree
- I am probably the most sensitive person in the world and most things turn me into a crying pile of mush.
- I am very curious to learn Sign Language.
- I have very good intuition about people and I am usually always right about what my gut instinct feels.
- I always hear music in my head no matter where I go or what I am doing.
- I have four tattoos, I want more. I’m seriously one of those women who wants a sleeve but don’t have the chops to do it… maybe a leg sleeve haha
- I LOVE rose gold jewelry and can never get enough of it.
- My favorite drink is milk.
- I have a guinea pig named Penelope. She just turned 4. She’s spoiled rotten, is a pain in the ass but is the sweetest, little thing I have ever seen.
- I love having jobs where I am helping people. Hopefully make it into a full time career so I can finally settle down and start a family.
- I’m obsessed with re-watching some of my favorite shows over and over and over.
- My favorite movie is Winter’s Tale. The perfect amount of Colin Farrell, true love, heartbreak, a magical horse and some stars. 😉
- My favorite person in the entire world is Leila.
- I have a tendency to live tweet shows or movies and the actors themselves will either like my tweet and or respond.
- I wanted to be a police officer but it wasn’t meant to be.
- My favorite place in the world is on top of mountain at a lake.
- I know a lot about makeup and I have one of the top membership cards at Sephora.
- Countdowns are my favorite to an event or vacation that’s coming up.
- I have only been to the hospital once, when I was diagnosed with Diabetes when I was 5.
- My hatred for doctors is real. I’d rather be stabbed and bleed out than see a doctor. They literally petrify me.
- I am a terrible sleeper.
- I love journals and if I saw a leather bound one, forget it, I am hooked.
- I love writing quotes, quoting movies, quoting lyrics.
- I have really neat handwriting.
- I painted my room a few months ago all by myself. I redecorated everything and my wall is basically an album of everyone and everything I love.
- Julia Roberts movies from the 90s makes me think of the times me and my mom always went to the movies together because we didn’t have a lot of money when I was growing up so that was a big deal.
- If I could be on any tv show it would be Sons of Anarchy.
Instead the uncertainty of things makes me unsettled and feeling like a failure, times a million.
I do have other cards I was dealt that I was extremely fortunate enough to have. A loving boyfriend, air in my lungs and hope. The hope that no matter how pissed off I am after a hard, unsettled night because of what I did or did not do ( and most likely did not do) the sun always does rise in the morning. Thanks Tom Hanks (Castaway)
I have to embrace the uncertainty. That everything I did up until this moment, was exactly what I needed to do and what was meant for me to have a long, fulfilling life ahead. I am about to turn 29 years old. There will be no more time limits.
Society tells you all the time what and who you need to be and if you don’t have it together by a certain age, forget it, you’re doomed. I’ve lost so much time, agonizing over my life’s decisions. I can’t do that to myself anymore. I deserve to be and feel free. Certain aspects of my life have hurt me more than helped me grow and fear has inhibited me from leaving which is what I should have done a long, long, long time ago. But that would have led me to other places and I probably would have never met my boyfriend.
I have such a supportive boyfriend. I am truly lucky. It’s now over a happy year of dating, I could tell him the worst thing(I think is) about me and he just looks at me with ease and is just kind of like “okay, what else hurts?” Anything I tell him about me doesn’t phase him or hurt him (well it probably hurts him that I’m hurting) but he always finds a way to make the worst thing possible, able to live with… and possible. And he makes it okay, each and every time. I’ve even gone as far as saying some really crazy things and he just understands me and deals with my madness. Another sign when you truly know in your gut and bones that you found someone so good, he was actually meant just for you (and yes, it’s possible to find that person). He makes the pain livable, because in his eyes, it’s okay. His opinion means a lot to me and I am very fortunate to have been dealt such an amazing card. He’s my soulmate. He’s my hope to living a long, fulfilling life.
So hope. Hope to better things, being able to be free and embrace the uncertainty. I would love to get married someday and make some babies with the love of my life. I just have to start learning how to be more easy on myself. I don’t give myself any credit for the hell that I have endured over the years. So many times, my life wasn’t truly lived and has ended for me many, many times but I have always prevailed. Nothing in life is set in stone. It’s okay if I don’t have it all together.
It’s okay to embrace the uncertainty.
“The greatest tragedy in life is to believe yourself a failure if you do not follow the path that society demands you march.” -Unknown